恭喜XN終於如愿以償的考上了院生

相信這是她這一年以來努力不懈的結果

 

自從我離開後

某種程度上我的夙愿也就希望能在她的身上成真

或許拿著這么多錢換來的東西兒戲的人

也只有我一個了

儘管我有千條萬條的理由

但總覺得整個事件付出的是別人

而結果卻是我的

也就是說我把別人的成本給虧了

是一件很不道義的事

好在他們不跟我計較

有什麽問題和怨言也不在我面前顯露

給的永遠只有包容

 

祝賀今年所有達成願望的人

終於美夢成真

 

這幾天腦中一直還在糾結前天晚上的那通電話

應該是早就有心理準備的

或者說早已經釋懷的

因為早在事情發生的初期我就成功的預見到了這個後果

但是因為在乎

在乎一些人還是讓我的情緒在這一刻到來的時候低迷

 

我們的生活就是這樣

好長時間都已經不再為別人而為自己生活著

而最近卻要不斷地向人解釋

向人求得那并無意義的一些認同

有時還要友情饋贈一些謊言

 

生活偏離真實

甚至只有在我們一同漫步海邊吹著海風的時候才是現實

而相反回到殘酷的現實生活才會感覺到是幻覺

就這么倒置

什麽時候才能夠"光明正大"的撥亂反正

我不知道

因為這本身就是一個近乎無解的矛盾體

 

這個周末真的是黑色的

突然發現原來什麽都不是自己想象規劃的那么好

雖然這不是任何人的錯

 

其實在爆發的那一刻我也在思考

爲什麽我會如此的抓狂,

如此的情緒不受自己所控制呢

想的答案縱然有很多

卻不是可以一下全部說得出來

說得清楚的

甚至現在我認為都沒有可以說的對象

 

曾經花了差不多6年的時間

逃離千里之外甩掉的惡習

卻在這種不知不覺中重新將我捆綁其中

並且越纏繞越複雜

越憎恨,越不知所措

 

是的

在回來後的兩個小時內

我繼續被人問得啞口無言

繼續被人說的體無完膚

並且

這已經是給過面子後的友情表達

我覺得我又正在把自己逼上絕路

迎接我的

不是毀滅

就將會是再一次的主動遠離,切割...

 

 

Taurus Horoscope for December 2008

 

December is shaping up as a milestone month, and one of your favorites of the year, a truth you'll see as you get closer to December 23. Lovely happenstance will continue to surprise and thrill you through most of January. Important travel to a location overseas (or at the very least to a city that's at a great distance from your regular base) for pure pleasure will make this month a standout.
　　
December will have a few tense moments too, making this month one of high contrast, but don't dwell on that - I will help you with that period at midmonth. Nothing should spoil your holiday period.
　　
A truly special day will come immediately, December 1, when planet of happiness and love, Venus, will meet with Jupiter, planet of prosperity and good luck, in your ninth house of foreign people and places. Expect an outstandingly fortunate day when lots of good luck should come your way. You can take a judicious risk on December 1, for you will have a comfy margin of error and be protected in rare ways - feel free to take that risk with the knowledge that you are likely to do well.

 

This meeting of Venus and Jupiter takes place only once a year and when they do, this cosmic event always has special significance to you, for Venus is Taurus' guardian planet. This meeting of two benefic planets will give you a peek of what will come to you as you progress through December. Exciting travel may be in the offing this month or you may receive news from an individual abroad. If it is the latter, it will be news that makes you jump for joy.
　　
Once you get to December 27, you will clearly see that your areas for gain will stem from all sorts of travel (especially for pleasure) as well as an important international relationship or the upcoming import or export of goods, services, or information. If you do travel, with good fortune Jupiter in your travel sector, you will find that a trip could be positively life changing in the insights that result.
　　
There are other areas that glitter brightly for you too this month, and those involve the media, whether that involves a publishing or broadcasting assignment, or as a writer, producer, or guest being interviewed. Alternatively you may focus your preparations on gaining an advanced degree from a university.

 

This trend on education, the media, or international travel and relationships will pulse at a quick beat once the new moon arrives December 27. That new moon will open a portal that will remain through early January but that will have far-reaching, positive ramifications for your life.
　　
If you were born on April 25 or within five days of this date, this trend will be especially strong.

However, with so many planets moving through earth signs, every Taurus will have something to celebrate.
　　
At midmonth, you may experience an untoward surprise involving money. Your first clue that something is amiss will first surface on December 10, but you won't know the whole story until the full moon appears on December 12. All full moons have an area of three days, bringing you to a heightened sense of awareness of this matter until December 15.

 

Mars has been forcing you to deal with added expenses and will continue to do so until month's end. Aside from your holiday shopping, it appears other expenses have been coming at you too, and you've had to handle those as well. There'll be no way to avoid the consequences of the news you hear about money at the full moon, and you may become tense. You'll need to find a quick solution too because Saturn will block Mars on December 15 as well, suggesting that you'll feel stymied until you handle the problem. Keep a careful watch on your spending as you enter December, for you may go over budget without realizing it. Socializing appears to be the culprit, for going out to parties and dinners this month will prove to be quite expensive.
　　
Just knowing a bit of financial instability may show up at midmonth will help you be more vigilant, and also better assess your options. If you know an expense is on the way, you can plan the activities you'd really like to do and decide in advance how much you'd feel comfortable spending. Alas, whatever expense comes up at midmonth will be completely unexpected and quite jarring. Keep up with your daily bank balances, lest you make a math error and find your checks begin to cascade rapidly. (The holidays are a busy time - this could happen to anyone!)

 

Professionally, Venus will enter your career zone on December 7 and will remain there all month. Venus will see to it that the reviews of your work by VIPs bring raves - it appears everyone wants you in their corner. In fact, a promotion is in the offing by early February. Underlings will support you too and ask to work for you - at work you'll be quite sought after.
　　
Thankfully, your strong focus on money will calm down by December 21, in time to truly enjoy the holiday season romantically and personally. The world will be your oyster, and the environment a warm and friendly place to navigate. You'll be eager to jump into holiday activities. Keep your schedule open so that you can meet up with friends on December 24, when an offer to enjoy friends, music, eggnog, and delicious foods may come in quite spontaneously.
　　
Clearly, one of the many ways you'll enjoy December is through travel to a distant point. Although the emphasis on packing and flying away to an exotic city will be in the air all month, once the new moon arrives on December 27, it will become a more urgent trend that becomes more possible in the two weeks that follow.

 

If your birthday falls on April 25, you will be positively overcome with wanderlust - let it happen!
　　
This year, on New Year's Eve, with the moon in poetic, perfect-for-Taurus Pisces and benefic Jupiter sending dazzling vibrations to travel planet Mercury, you may ring in the New Year by sipping champagne with your partner in the shadow of beautifully lit Eiffel Tower. Even if you're not attached, see if you can find a rare and special travel bargain to an exotic point - if anyone can find a package, it will be you! Go with a friend in that case, or your sibling, but go you must!
　　
Summary
　　
This month has a strong financial tone, and with Mars tearing through your credit sector, mounting balances seem to be a part of life this month. Try as you will, monster expenses will come out to bite you, so do your best to keep unnecessary spending down. If you can defer a few things for yourself for later, you may be all the happier for it. It looks like you may be spending to improve your current home, to move, or to buy / rent a new home.
　　
I suggest you put off as many expenses this month as you can because of the witch of a full moon due December 12, operative plus or minus three days. This emotional full moon will cause just about everyone you know to push the panic button. For you, financial considerations seem to reach a certain culmination that feels like the point of no return.

 

Don't worry so much, dear Taurus. As you will learn next month, you are moving into a truly extraordinary career phase that will last a year. While you DO have to manage money responsibly throughout December, if you've been victimized by the difficult global economic conditions, you will soon find a way to climb your way out of your current pit to the very top of the mountain. Yes, that may sound like a movie plot, but you can turn things to your favor. I will have nothing but good news in the two months to come.
　　
At month's end, despite any financial conditions that swirl around you, you seem almost certain to travel quite far. This may be due to the kindness of someone near who loves you and who has given you an air ticket. Or it may be a trip of a lifetime you've been planning for a very long time - this one seems really special. If you are leaving to study abroad, you could not have chosen a better time to go.
　　
For those who work in the media, whether publishing or broadcasting, a big opportunity may come up for you that makes you so happy you will want buy a sign in Times Square to tell the world about it. Wow!
　　
It may help to know that any articles, books, or TV shows having to do with financial themes will do very well, as planets in Capricorn suggest that. Capricorn also rules antiques and historical themes, so look to those as being quite successful, too.

 

Your favorite day this month will be December 1, when Venus and Jupiter combine to make you feel like the luckiest person in the zodiac, and maybe, dear Taurus, you ARE!
　　
Dates to watch for December:
　　
Romantically, your best nights to have fun include: December 1, 9, 13, 17, 21 (perfect for entertaining guests in your home), 21-24, 26-28, and 31.